Have you ever asked this question?
Have you ever felt yourself ugly and silly?
Have you ever wanted to become more perfect?
You are self-deprecating, right?
Listen to my story ...
I am 19 years old, I weigh 50 kilograms, height is 1 meter 61.
When I was 17 years old, I weighed 46 kilograms and was 1meter60
When I was 14 years old, I was 154cm tall and weighed 54 kilos
When I was 14 years old, I was the fattest student in my class, I had the darkest skin in my class and my hair was very curly. At that time, I was just a fat kid, my favorite was eating and eating everything.
I am still happy, I go to school and happy every day, I do not care about everyone's reproach.
Until one day..
I returned to my hometown, which is where I was born, I have been away from my hometown for over 3 years. My family lives in the city, I have not seen my relatives long ago.
When I got off the bus, people said, "You're too fat, why are you so black?" "You need to lose weight."
Fat and ugly, I do not care. But my relatives denigrated me, I was really sad and upset. I decided to lose weight, I set out a strict diet regime. I only eat 1 bowl of rice every day, I do not eat meat, or fat. I do not eat snacks and drink soft drinks. I try to drink honey with lemon every morning, I exercise regularly. After 1 year I lose 8 pounds. But my skin was pale and weak because I ate so little. I was really obsessed with weight. I bought a scales, one day I stood on the scales five times. When I wake up, when I finish eating, when I go to the toilet, when I go to bed, when I want to watch my weight.
When I was too skinny I could not eat much, I lost my sense of excitement about food.
I do not like to eat rice, I do not eat anything in a day I still feel good.
People continue to disdain me, they say me: '' you are too skinny, your skin is too blue, look at your face i just see the eye ''
Their words hurt my heart. That was when I was in puberty, I was easily agitated and I fell bad !!! Try ! , I forget that I have no obligation to please them.
Body-Shaming or "stigma" is a form of language used to denigrate or deride someone's appearance, causing the person to feel uncomfortable or offended. You can hear phrases like "fat like pigs", "skinny as addicts" ... That is Body-Shaming.
Those who are disgraced, many will spend most of their time scrutinizing their own shortcomings, constantly experiencing discomfort and frustration. Gradually those emotions will stagnate into shame, always feeling inferior. These emotions form psychological self-deprecation or afraid to communicate, isolate themselves from society. At a more complex level, these people will fall into depression because they do not want to go out, do not want to appear before anyone. More dangerous, the complexity of appearance will lead to suicide.
Yes, I had the intention of locking myself up when my mother said, "You are a pig."- Maybe it's a joke, the line between teasing and joke very small.. it can cause misunderstanding.
A heartbreaking story about The Guardian recently: Jessica Laney, a lovely girl, became a victim of Internet bullying at the end of her life at the age of 16. Not just mocked In terms of appearance, called "fat" or "dull", Jessica also received more horrible words like "can you die?" or "no one cares about you".
Finally, I had a better workout regime. I eat well, skin mask. ^^ After 6 years I have good looks.
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