Hi, freewriters,
It's Abeegail again, i wrote a poem today, we usually say we are afraid of the dark, spiders or heights but truly what are we really afraid of subconsciously.
If someone need to ask me what's my deepest fear was, I'll probably say the dark........
.......but on a deeper level, I will say finding out someone only pretended to like me, thinking I was actually important to someone, just to find out that you mean so little. You were not as special as you thought and I sit there like a silly little girl that I am, and think I'm finally a gem when I was not worth more than a rock.
.........I'd probably say losing my favorite person, what do you mean I won't get to see you smile, tell jokes that make us laugh the hundredth time even when it's not funny, what do you mean I won't experience to world with your funny side comments that makes it feel like we are in a sitcom, what do you mean I won't get to see the world in its beauty because you are my light in this dark world.
..........I'd probably say never finding my soulmate, because I never wanted to be vulnerable, because I feel like love will ruin me, the Abeegail I built from sweat and tears, I'm scared that I will lose her, I'm scared I will go through hell to get them and by then I am bruised and battered and unlovable, I'm scared that I will be pulled into a game that has no rules, a game I have no idea about, because all I want is that person that understands, because ever so often I apologize for my depth. I want butterflies in my belly and the teenage love even when we are old and grey and can't recognize each other.
..........I'd probably say wasting my youth not doing the things I long to do, like having friends, going out, having fun, having experiences, dancing in the rain, dyeing my hair, wearing that dress, taking more picture, planning for my future, putting in the work, building myself, I feel that I will be watcher, watching people leave their lives while I rot in bed all day drowning in wasted youth, i fear that I'll never see the potential I always thought I had come to life.
So I'm not that afraid of the dark neither am I afraid of death nor spiders.
So what is your greatest fear, and don't be tempted to say the dark.
It's Still Abeegail 💗✨
Thank you for Reading.
The image is mine.