In my previous post, I had discussed about how much of a strong obsession blue has become for me over the years, in terms of painting. I talked about sharing such similar experiences with you guys and as promised I am here with the part 2 in this series. Let's go, shall we?
Now I am all for discussing about art, artists, mediums, trend, et cetera et cetera.. But if there is one thing that makes me super uncomfortable, it is being watched while I paint. Mm-Mm.
I swear to god the moment I notice someone making their way towards me with expecting eyes is when I start panicking. I suddenly forget basic functions like holding a pencil. I am like yeah.. so .. this is a brush, this here is paint…? “Please go away, please…” ? Somebody save mee!! I instantly get bombarded with thoughts. Oh my god, why are you watching? What are you watching? Are you judging me? What are you thinking? Oh my god, is he noticing how shaky my hand is… Gaawwwdd! The struggle is real.
You know what I mean, how you hate it when the examiner walks over to your table and starts validating your paper and you sit there acting all calm and collected but deep inside you feel a part of your soul dying? Yeah this is exactly like that. Now don't get me wrong, I am totally okay with someone seeing the final piece once I’m done but it’s super annoying when he/she starts passing comments while it’s still in the making. I suddenly feel like Gollum from Lord Of The Rings!
And then you have no option but to deal with it. In situations like these I generally start to sharpen my pencils or wash my brushes like it would be the last time my brushes would get a bath. I start making awkward conversations with the spectator (generally my friends) until I successfully divert them from my artwork. Do you think that's mean? I mean I don't know, I remember having a similar chat about this with and it felt okay for once :D But I have been trying to improve myself also simultaneously even though it's one of the most difficult things for me. Let me know if any of you face this or if it's just me? And if you do, I would LOVE to hear about how you deal with it!
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Lots Of Love <3