I have to admit that for the first 46 years of life I felt invincible. That's not to say that I am hurt or sick now I'm not. (At least not that I know of).
My life has been pretty linear. At least what I consider linear. I follow my interests. I usually take the backroads to get places. It makes me feel like I earned the right to arrive to where other people are. I feel it gives me more insight into where I am and why. I'm a voracious listener of others experiences and try to pick them apart in my mind to draw road maps for myself.
I know what its like to be hungry I know what its like to buy a few houses. I know who it is to lose houses. (believe me: there is a right way to lose a house) I know what it's like to be a academic success and a failure. I know what its like to be extremely fit and what's its like to be fat where I can't run a block. I know what it is to be loved and to be left. Subconsciously, I think I have always been looking to experience these and other extremes.
I've learned that you can be happy at both extremes. You can be happy when you poor as well as when you are secure. I've learned that the people who stick with you during your path are the ones who really matter. That's really all that one needs. I've learned that it's more important to keep your opinions to yourself as much as possible - but keep updating them and be flexible if the underlying facts change.
I discovered that its more important to leave a positive impact on peoples' lives than you realize - as many people are suffering in their own hell while they greet you with a happy face.
I discovered that fear is used to control everyone in some obvious but mostly very subtle ways. You can only be free when you trust yourself and you let go of your fears. Doing so will make you unstoppable and most likely feared in return.
I discovered that everything tends to work itself out sooner or later. But the more you know the better it will work itself out. So keep learning at all costs.
I've discovered that I am ready to try to have a baby with my wife. I have an encyclopedia of lessons and knowledge to share. I feel ready. Because, someday I will die and I want to leave something positive in this world. Of that I can be 100% sure of.
Cheers and Keep Steeming!!!
Alex