I overthink. I overthink big time. When I start to overthink I get major anxiety. And anxiety is not a fun thing. Seriously. It's a horrible thing. I've had anxiety for years, I've had it since I was 16. I get anxiety often...too often. I wish it would go away. I wish I could stop overthinking about everything. It hurts my mind, my chest, and its weakening. I've had it where I had to lay down because it weakens me.
I remember this one time when I really overthought and from that I got a panic attack. I cried, my hands shook, and my chest hurt.
Anxiety is so stupid and it makes me really mad! I get mad because I hate how it affects me so easily! There was a short period when I didn't have it. When I didn't overthink. When I didn't get nervous and my chest didn't hurt. But then there's one thing that someone says in a tone I don't like and I began to overthink again. So then I get anxiety again. And this time its worse than ever. I absolutely hated it! I had anxiety the minute I woke up and I had anxiety to the minute I went to sleep, and in between. But, it's not like that anymore. I am better. Much better.
I get anxiety for many, many dumb reasons. And I have examples lol.
- When I get nervous, and I get nervous all the freaking time!
- Driving! Ugh! I get major anxiety about that! That's why I haven't gotten my license yet! I am too afraid! I'm sure I'll get it someday though.
- I used to have it big time when I talked to people, especially when people ask me questions and generally talk to me lol. But I have gotten better. I think, lol.
- When a public place is really loud and crowded, it makes me so nervous. It's horrible. I am thinking the whole time how I wish it was quiet and peaceful.
- When I'm not comfortable, I just leave lol.
Oh, and I care way to freaking much of what others think! Ugh, I wish I didn't. I need to get better at that, I have to get better at that! If I don't, I'll be living my life trying to please others. I need to learn how to be free of care. Because it f*****g sucks!!