Hey, I don't know why you are trying to seek for validation from the people around you. I know this sounds Cliche but you should really learn to love yourself more and accept yourself more. If you don't fit in then F**k them and go on your own route. Society wants everyone to fit a certain mold but we're all different individuals, and if you can't fit, it just means that you're different, and that's totally ok. Hope you feel better soon. Cheers.