Life get unbearable for me by the day and its feels like the whole problem will never come to an end, as i fight one problem others set up which exposes me to frustration.
I'm really frustrated and my hope for leaving start to depreciate, no one look towards my direction to say hello they all assume am fine.
What I wants seems to be far from me. I think so much that i get stalked in my very own head, and I seems not to find my ways around it. They say life is good but am experiencing the opposite.
Everything appears like i will never get what i want. I'm depressed! I'm hurt! I'm failing! am dying!. I'm not attracted to what I want,in other words what I want don't equally want me.
I'm turning to become the shadow of myself. But when will I find the happiness my heart desires? when will I achieve the things I want?
I cry myself to sleep at night and I watch my pillow drenched with my own tears, it sad to still see my self crying while awake.
I have lost strength crying, my visions became blur with constant tears, my nostrils went block and my head aches. I'm filled with the sucks I get from my tear and mucus, that's because the more I wipe it the more it flows.
But then I asked do I really have to go through this? why is life not fare to me? my attempt to make things better always turns out impossible. Countless of time I tried to make myself happy but am still feeling something is missing.
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