Well done, a great post that just may inspire a few.

The question is, why are you stirring us up and then being so vague about what you are doing to make your life worth living?

He tried writing (maybe ) a poem or lyrics; you? It can be anything...learn to weave grass baskets, if that excites you, learn how to grow a vegetable plot for healthy food for yourself, family and friends, read books that help you grow. Keep your mind open to ideas and possibilities to start something that gains you independence.

Husband of my niece worked for a telephone company. He started doing panel beating (repairing the body of cars) at home at night and over the weekends. He soon had so much work he was sending people away. He refused to give up his job, it was his 7 to 5 safety harness, guaranteeing he can feed his children.

Then his boss called him in and ordered him to train, over two months, his assistant, for his assistant to take over as his new boss. He told him to do something very nice to himself and walked out.

He now employs two people and built an extra closed garage so that he has one just for the spray painting.

All it takes is, develop your abilities, ones you have examined yourself and know in which direction you want to go and then, have the guts to make a start while still working. Sure, it means no evenings before the screen and relaxing weekends. You can do those things once you reach my age...and have the money to sit back and let your past successes and sweat pay for your present.

Anything less is a betrayal of yourself