For the last 5 years, I didn't work. I had no job - not because I couldn't find one or because I was too lazy but because our circumstances as expatriates in another country didn't allow it. I also had my own three little children to raise at home and what a privilege it was indeed to be there for them as much as they needed me to be.
Because there was no time at one stage for me to continue my studies as a teacher, I got a little behind. As soon as they were all old enough for school and understood what studying was all about, I enrolled to finish my degree.
I've been a teacher long before my first child was born 7 years ago. The experience is something that I will always have and it will never leave me. At that time, and because I was a student studying through correspondence, I was employed as a student teacher. There I was treated like any other teacher. I had full day classes each day and was expected to dive into the deep end. I was strong enough to make it, but had so many responsibilities on my shoulders that I rarely got the time for my studies.
At last, I am now back in my own country. Back in the same place where it started all those years ago. It's time for the last couple of modules. The last year!
Suddenly, I am no longer just a mom studying at home!
Part of those are the practicals - teaching practices- where students have to attend a school for a couple of weeks as a teacher - unpaid - to get some real-life training and experience into the life of a teacher...and for the grades!
Even though I will be doing this at the same school where I used to teach, I feel scared!!!
I'm scared like a little chicken being chased by a butcher!!!
It's been such a long time. I haven't stood in front of a class for years and I'm wondering if it would be like riding a bicycle and that I will just be able to hop back on and ride again. I didn't even have any children of my own then, and now I have THREE to get ready for school in the morning, including myself. It stresses me out completely!
Not only will all eyes be on me, but I'll have to work like a horse for 15 weeks...FOR FREE!
I'll have to get into a new routine (I've been have quite a lot of new routines lately) to be out of the house every morning by 7am and not to forget anything (or anyone) at home. This time it would be work, studies, preparations, kids and all of this, all on my own.
I've done these things to take a little bit of the stress away so far:
- I have already bought everything that I thought I would ever need as I don't want to be caught off-guard.
- School supplies, school uniforms and outfits for myself have been taken care of.
- To reduce the time I have to spend on my frizzy hair every morning, I've gotten myself a Brazilian blow-out. Now, at least is frizz-free for the first time in my life.
- I found myself a domestic worker to help out a few times a week as I don't see myself getting around to sweeping floors any time soon.
- I have filled up both vehicles with gas just in case Murphy decides to visit me one morning.
- To make sure I do not oversleep in the mornings (due to late activities on Steemit), I got myself the biggest and loudest extra alarm clock I could find.
- Left-over food has been stored in the freezer for a rainy day.
- To make up for not getting any salary for 6 months, I spoiled myself with Steemit for backup!
- I married a good husband who works day in and day out in another country, waiting patiently to pay my bills.
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