When I was pregnant with my first child I planned an all natural birth. I didn't want any pain medicine and I wanted it to be a vaginal birth. Little did I know that my body wouldn't allow for such a thing to happen. I read it daily how if you have a csection you're never truly a mother. I can say without a doubt I am a mother times 2.
Baby Atticus and I
I read everything I could on giving birth and how I wanted to do so. I studied ways to cope with the contractions and allow nature to do her thing. I walked hallways, bounced on a ball, took baths, and I rocked bath and forth. After doing this for 53 hours I went from 7 cm to 5 cm. This could only mean one thing.. My cervix had decided to start closing, but I didn't even have my baby yet. That's when an emergency call for a c section was done. Within an hour my son was here, but the c section itself was terrible. I felt every tug, cut, pull, and tear. I was in extreme pain. Suddenly I was put to sleep and missed my son's cry. This was my first c section.
Waiting on Atticus to be born
2 years later after numerous attempts at getting pregnant we finally conceived another boy. The joy unexpectedly turned to shear agony. Could I go through with another c section like before? Would I develop PostPartum Depression again? I had so many concerns. When the day arrived to have my son Atticus it amazed me how perfect it actually went!
Atticus Jack
My doctor hand picked the best nurses, assistant surgeon, and even nurse anesthesiologist for my big day. Even though I had an anxiety attack about the whole ordeal, I couldn't have had a better experience. Especially because once my baby was born, I heard him cry and to have skin to skin with him in the Operating Room.
What are your experiences as a mother giving birth? I've had one terrible and one perfect. Just because society says you aren't a mother because you had a c section doesn't mean they are correct.Let your voices be heard. I had a c section and that makes me a mother!