Yes, fat... not chubby or overweight, just fat, obese.
In the past year I wrote a post, where I tell how a rare disease changed my life forever.
It made me gain around 30kg in less than one year. Few years later, I managed to lose 20kg, but moving to the Netherlands gave me back those 20kg. Now I’m living a new old struggle, that at once I want to get over, forever.
I’m 27 years old, some might disagree, but I don’t feel that young anymore. My mom died at my age, so life to me seems fragile and fast as a train. I read one of these days the human being starts his walk to death at age 26. I really don’t plan dying soon, but I’d like to live the rest of it in the most healthy way possible, I mean, I might still have 50 years ahead, right?
Doing simple chores are just too hard. Biking, running, working, crossing my legs, wearing some clothes like my favorite jeans, and tie my shoes – you can ask any fat person, this is hell if you’re fat. Pardon me, but, what a shit way to live. My bad habits have affected me physically and mentally.
My body in four years. What am I doing to myself?
I just had a dinner with a fat friend, and while eating a slice of pizza I asked him “Why did I come to this life this fat?”, and he answered “We came all small, we made ourselves fat, baby”. And you know, he’s not lying.
My feelings are 100% connected to food, I can find a reason to eat anytime, and in most of the times it's because wether I’m sad or happy. I can celebrate or drown my sorrows with food, any time, any where. And it doesn’t help that my boyfriend also loves eating, but the only difference is that he’s way smaller than I. He’s around 110kg, and I’m close to 100kg. He’s 2 metters, I’m 1,70cm. There’s no rule to be heavier or smaller than your partner of course, but I just want us to be healthy together, cos I know we will be able to enjoy much more together for a long time in this life.
This way I decided to write down my weight loss journey on Steemit, hopefully I will meet nice people, wether also struggle with that or are professional, or even positive minds that I know are spreaded all over this fantastic plataform. I really would like to have some support in here, so if you feel like, follow me or help me, this would be the best part about this diary for sure.
So let the game beggins: I’m fat, but not for long.
Thanks for reading,
B.