Mindless Reality

Melting into blackened darkness
Vivid colors flash before my eyes
Dimensions flying through my chest
To fall away into nothingness

Conspiracies mixed with laughter
Pure terror in my heart
Realizations overwhelming me
No going back to naivety

She doesn't exist died long ago
It's not true it’s all a joke
Searching for what's not there
Grasping for get nothing but air

Spinning down into the blackness
Clutching to a solid rock
Folding walls back again
A face appears I have not forgot

Lost and found I feel so blind
Conspiracies all intertwined
Doubting my mentality
This is now my reality

poem written by me circa 2009