I have been learning how to honor and create space for the pain and hurt that comes from accepting a changed relationship.
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This pain does not come from another person hurting me.
It is the pain of allowing myself to resist, and then giving into the resistance.
It is the shaking in my bones as I struggle against a force within me.
It is the trembling of my muscles. The reawakening of my inner-strength.
I feel the remnants of memories hiding within my muscle tissue. I push harder. Jagged, darkness cuts through me. I gasp.
Breath after breath after breath.
I feel it cutting my flesh, like a sandstorm of pulverized bone. It swirls around me. I am nearly nothing.
I push harder.
There. At the center of the void emerges the nucleus of light.
I am nothing but swirling, pulverized bone.
The nucleus ruptures, dead center, eyes closed.
Flutters open
like quiet lightning.
I am holding my breath.
Inhale.
It hits me like a wave, and I fall backwards into a sea of grass and sunlight.
Exhale.
This is the light of intention.
It is the light that grows brighter with purpose and kindness to oneself.
I allow myself to embrace the gentle darkness of resistance.
The light of intention flows through me like a torrential rain in a quiet forest.
This pain is reflection. I am nourished by it.
Through and through and through,
deep within my roots.
❂ Reflection ❂
- What ways do you provide yourself care and nourishment when you are experiencing big changes in your life?
- Do you feel like you are someone who is resilient in times of upheaval? How do you stay grounded?
- What are your thoughts on solitude?