I felt like I haven't known what to write all day. It's been a bit of an emotional overload and I'm just trying to keep myself positive. I wasn't really able to sleep much last night, just read my poem I posted if you want an idea of what my head space is like. While I was unable to sleep and fighting to keep my own peace, I realized that I hadn't heard from one of my steem friends or seen a post of hers in a few days. I left a reply to check on her and found out this morning that she has been in the hospital and got a good reminder that everyone is fighting a war we know nothing about.
I felt compelled to raise awareness after she shared her husbands post and then I had to face my own self afterwards. I never really have a problem making a decision and acting when something is important to me. My trouble comes on the back end of questioning myself and my own intentions. One of the people I was sharing the post with ended up showing me a lot of kindness as well and while I was extremely grateful it made me reflect on my intentions. Did I do the right thing? Did I expect to get anything out of it? Am I doing this for the right reasons? I don't really doubt myself as far as doing things that effect my own life anymore, but sometimes I jump into things like this and realize that I didn't even think about it.
I guess it's a good reminder to have faith in myself and others. I know what kind of person I am and what my intentions are and I shouldn't doubt that. I imagine that her husband struggled with even writing that post and asking for help, I mean he said as much, but I understand that feeling of helplessness and wishing you could do anything to fix something and having no control over the situation. It's another good reminder to have faith. I don't need to understand why any of it is happening or why I felt compelled to help. I just need to know who I am and what my intentions are and have faith that it is going to all work out for the best! Surprisingly, this has been the hardest post I have written in a while. Best wishes 
