If anything in life is worth pursuing it is the Truth. Whatever morals you have, whatever you feel, and whatever you love, what meaning can it have if it is not based on Truth?
Unfortunately the Truth cannot be known or fully understood. You can only hope to glimpse it through the haze of your limitations.
In this recognition, I have accepted that nothing can be certain, belief in my rightness has left me. I have lost all sides and am sitting in the Between. It is a large discomfort to be agnostic and skeptical to such an extent.
It is soothing to believe we have the answers and that we set our own future. We want to determine our own fate. It brings us hope to think that we are on the right side of Truth. We are tempted to take the path that is solid and certain. It is an illusion we desperately seek to prove and we have had much practice in building this majestic tapestry. But the tapestry isn't reality and eventually we have to look away and face the Truth. It is there we find meaning.