Hello Ladies.
Lately, I have realized that the moments I feel like I don’t have enough time are not really about time… it is more about me trying to do too much at once, like I am lowkey competing with myself every single day.
For me it usually happens when I start piling things on top of each other without thinking. I will have something to do maybe work or something I planned earlier, then I will still try to squeeze in another things like replying to messages checking updates trying to stay active online, I will even think about what my next move should be in life. Before I know it my head is full, I am jumping from one thing to another without actually resting.
One situation that really makes me feel like I am doing much is when I am trying to be productive and available at the same time. I want to focus and get things done. I also do not want to miss out on anything, So I end up stretching myself in directions, It sounds small. It adds up, but Mentally it is very draining.
Another one is overthinking. I won’t even lie, this one is a big one for me, even when I’m not physically doing anything, my mind is working overtime, i will be thinking about what I’ve done, what I haven’t done, what I should be doing next, and even things that haven’t even happened yet, It is like I don’t give myself a break, and that alone can make me feel like I’m doing too much, even when I am just sitting down.
There are also times when I put pressure on myself to always be on, Like I have to be making progress, improving, doing something meaningful every single day, and while that mindset can be good, it can also become too much when there’s no balance, because the truth is, we are not machines, there are days you just need to slow down, but sometimes I don’t allow myself that.
I have started to notice that when I feel like I do not have time it is usually a sign that I have ignored my limits for too long.. I have not rested properly or I have taken on more than I can handle or I am just mentally overwhelmed.
What I am trying to learn is to actually listen to myself. If I am tired I should rest without feeling guilty, if I cannot do everything in one day that is okay, Not everything is urgent even though it feels like it.
I am also trying to be more intentional, with my time, of doing everything at once, I pick what really matters at that moment and focus on it, honestly that alone has been helping a bit.
At the end of the day, I think feeling like you are doing too much is sometimes your mind and body trying to get your attention. Like, “slow down, you’re pushing too hard.” and instead of ignoring it, I am starting to actually listen… even if I’m still learning how to get it right.