I often feel my experience is the opposite to what most streamers and content creators seem to experience. When I am live, I'm at my best. I feel safe, secure, in control, and able to open up. It's those moments away from that environment where I feel my lowest. When I'm exposed, when I'm losing a grip on that control.

I think for some, streaming is a form of coping that lets them feel normal for a moment. So perhaps it is also a roadblock that inhibits your ability truly better your health. Maybe it is a trick; you feel like that's your normal mood, but it's just masking the deeper issues that still need reconciling.

Great piece though man.