Well folks, there have been so many miracles around me these days I don't know where to start.
Let's start with my mom. She was hacked by shopping on a fraudulent amazon website and the hacker ran $500 on her credit card. Now if you knew this woman you would see how this was a direct answer to her thought patterns. As mentioned in my previous post, my mother was always paranoid about how someone was going to steal from her and it was only a matter of time before something like this happened. I was very curious to see how she was going to take this situation and what was going to be her modus operandi from this point forward. I fully expected her to ramp up even more paranoia and cling to the victim story that ran her life to this point. To my surprise she gave me a response that I completely didn't expect.
My mother was always a spiritual woman who also lived the life of a religious one. It was hard for many people to understand how she could love the traditions and extensive rituals that she practiced. Often people would ask her why she would let the church dictate to her how she should live and her answer was always the same, "The church doesn't tell me how to live, I choose to live like this." Slowly but surely the traditions started to diminish and my mother got lost. Sure she still went to church and performed a handful of the required duties with each holiday but something was missing.
A few days passed after the incident and I was able to talk to my mother again about what was happening. That morning I had planned on spending some time alone and when I heard my phone ring I inwardly cringed until I saw that it was my mother. I briefly had dreaded talking to her again for I really didn't know what to say without sounding very preachy. Besides this mindset that is substantiated on the Law of Attraction is my modus operandi, not hers, so I wasn’t really sure how to support her. I started to broach the subject of her thoughts when she cut me off and stated that she knew why this was happening to her.
My mother started to explain about the story of Moses and the Hebrews during the time prior to the Exodus. During that time, the stubbornness of the Egyptians and their Pharaoh brought upon them 10 plagues of suffering. My mother then went on to list all the things wrong with her physically and financially and quipped that, “All she needed was the frogs to show up and she would be set!”. Again my mind went to earlier programming my mother shared with me about how she was made to live this life in suffering just like Christ suffered. Again I cringed for I wasn’t sure really how to support that mindset at all either. Again I was challenged for she didn’t feel that at all either.
What she felt this was was a direct manifestation of a lifestyle where she was destroying herself. The computer was a time sucker and was slowly deteriorating her dreams and relationship with God. Now this is where it got interesting for my first thought was that she meant to go back to church and become more religious; that was not the case at all. Church going was possibly an outcome of this A-HA moment but certainly not the means to get there. She felt that what had happened was that she lost her connection with God. Again I wondered if she was talking about going back to all the rituals she had participated in but that was not it at all. She simply stated that her life got consumed by fear and that she slowly shut god out. The latest trigger was when she was given notice that the subsidy on her condo was ending and she was going to receive a substantial increase in her rent. That stress caused a huge amount of stress and corresponding physical ailments.
What amazed me the most was the fact that she equated this misfortune with her negative thinking. In her darkness, she explained that she let her fear take over and it transformed her to a person that she didn’t even recognize and that the answer was to reconnect with God. Sure she associates her positive thinking to her relationship with Jesus but when you look deeper you see that she is attempting to change her thoughts to ones based in faith. This faith is where she believes that she is taken care of and everything will work out. It’s so easy to get caught up in the “who and what” she believes in instead of the formula for success that she just laid out.
The law of attraction is no different for it states that if you believe positive thoughts, you will receive positive people, situations and events that reflect those thoughts. It is also the same with negative thoughts and my mom came face to face with seeing how that happened. It was awesome to see her be inspired knowing that she had strayed from who she really was and the inspiration that came to get back there. I’m proud of her and it was clearly a wakeup call for me and the limitations of my thinking. How many times did I quip that she contradicted my initial read to what she was going to think or say? Now Jax, who is being negative?