I am just preparing for my dialysis for today now and I have a complaint about my rib pain and my left hip joint and it makes me drag my feet while walking because of it so I just use the wheelchair in aid of my parents, sitting on it is also a struggle. I took some anti-pain medicine just to relieve some of the pain but it is of no use.
My body is very very stiff and these issues just compounded on me but I am still thankful that I could still bathe myself although it is a terrible work in itself.
My only prayer is not to break some bones or I will be in a trouble deep. While cleaning my legs and feet in the shower I used to rest my elbow on my knees because I can't lift my legs to scrub it anymore. My left elbow then slipped and I thought I will break some bones because of that because of the sharp pain.
I hope to soon get a disabled-friendly bathroom with lots of handles That I can hold on while walking in it because waling from the shower towards the door although it is just a few feet away seems like an eternity of a distance if can't manage to life your feet because of your hip joint pain.
Well despite of all these I still wanted to live because of my goals in life but it is just a 50/50 desire and the other desire is for me to rest now because it is a hard life if not expensive to manage. My parents are also suffering because of me but I will still keep on with life and wiill just find ways to search to alleviate my misery. God help me.