There are many reasons for me to get depressed, sad, blue, or down and let's be honest with it, many people would choose to claim their own lives than to undergo what I am passing through my life right now. It is really unimaginable to have an appearance as well as the hordes of different pain in your body which you also don't know if it would stop or deteriorate even further despite that you are taking a not so cheap medicine for it.
Maybe I am just used to by now in being in a miserable condition for so long a time that I do not know what it is to be normal anymore and just accepted that I am in this situation for the long haul. It seems like that, but thinking negative about my condition and situation all the time will just lead to nothing. For me I would rather find a way around the problem at hand to solve it and solve it with all my mind, willpower, determination, perseverance, and utmost patience.
It really is depressing but I am not depressed (special thanks to coffee), just a bit disappointed that things didn't go as planned for me. I am just thankful that I had seen and experienced in this world how is it to live it, experience it, and taste it for my self.
I just value more now the love and care from my lovedones and also the peculiar love and care of people for me around the world. It is all just amazing and my thankfulness and gratefulness will never cease for those family and friends here at steemit God bless you all.