It will be our way for now on as my mother baby-sit on my niece, me and my Father will be the ones together again when I go for my dialysis. It is because my niece is very young still and needs supervision while her parents worked as a teacher and my sister's husband as a mechanic in the paper mill that my brother also works from as a supervisory personnel.
It is just convenient when my mother would be there to assist me when we enter the dialysis room, she would then fix me on my chair position because I would ask her to lay me down because I can't breath normally when I do sit down the dialysis chair and she also tells the convenient store clerk to put some extra gravy in my fried meat on rice in a bowl.
What I don't let her do is to feed me with a spoon because I can still feed myself but maybe in the future I might be forced to let her bathe me because I am just completely disabled.
But if I can still do stuffs I won't ask for assistance not only from my parents but from other people as well. I am just unable at most times cannot walk easily because of my bodily problems and my parents are always there to rescue me. That is why I wanted to repay my parents as soon as I have settled my finances, they are in my plans, God help me.
I am very fortunate to enjoy the company of my parents although I should not bother them, it is just we got entangled with my health mess that we cannot get out of. But maybe in the near future things will get better if not for me but for my parents.
I am also happy that my mother would baby-sit my youngest niece so that she can entertain herself taking care of my sister's youngling, it is better that way for the child so that my sister can see her when she goes home from work rather than my niece being with her other grandma back in the other town.
It is also better for my mother to be in the house rather than with me in the hospital so she could relax because she is afraid of the needles and also, waiting for me to finish my session for four hours is no small thing to consider. So I just don't want my mother to go through all those that would stress her.
I really don't want to stress anyone, we just don't have anymore choice, it is a hard situation to manage.