Well it does suck when you see your earnings halve and then some more because of the southland journey for the moment (I hope) of cryptocurrency prices steem included and I am seeing myself bogged knee deep and really unable to leap-frog forward and achieve some of my life goals.
These life goals are my medical goals, surgeries that I know will change my life but they needed funding and I do not want to bother anyone just to achieve them because I know that most people view my case as either hopeless or they would not get anything from it and this is true with my family and some of the doctors that I met as they surrendered or gave up before fighting with me.
Now I am pretty sure that if somebody in my family would get this disease that I had they will probably get the transplant because they already knew what will happen if they do not take the necessary approach to deal with this kind of situation.
I am just sad that I was unable to reach my dreams in my life because of my disease and I feel like a rat trapped in a cage as if I was not for this world like an onion peeled layer by layer until none is left and I am destroyed but still the best approach is to never lose hope because the tides of life may turn in my favor and see myself holding the scepter of triumph even for a while. God help me.