Today I tried to sleep in the early afternoon and was able to get a nap. It is really a wonderful feeling when I do catch soe nap because it somewhat recharges me especially today where I am not so breathless yet that I didn't get a sleep disturbance and waking up catching my breath and having a racing heart.
So it is stressful sometimes when I do get some sleep. Now I know the cause of my sleep disturbance and that was my being so waterlogged and breathless most of the time that it makes my breathing pattern unable to supply my body with oxygen so it makes my heartbeat go fast just to compensate as I sleep and then it disturbs my sleep not to mention the bad dreams it creates which sometimes I also like despite its a near-nightmare kind of dream.
It really feels good to have a good sleep like today which relaxed my heart as I felt it. Now I will just try to not get so waterlogged with fluids because it does give me a bad quality of life as a dialysis patient. It is still a learning process for me despite that it took many years to make me figure things out but I am still thankful about it.
It is my goal to feel better between dialysis so I am keeping things in check for my other important goals in life that I hope not to outlive me but I think it will be the case anyway as I don't control my fate in this lifetime.