There are two forces battling in me and that is to eat or not to eat. I am just lucky that somehow i can eat unlike in the former years that I am just anemic and really doesn't have much desire to eat any food for that matter. But today I can eat but I can't eat that much, if I do I will get some kind of stomach upset like today because my guts are revolutionizing. So I have to go to the toilet often to relieve myself.
Fruit salad was the main culprit of my gut revolution, it is because of the fiber which makes me produce a lot of gas in the process. That is why I always like to eat just rice and some protein rich foods. But eating fibrous foods indeed cleans my gut as I pass the foods quite easily from my system.
It is hard to just control my diet especially if the foods are delicious, fatty, and sinful. The roast pork leftover was cooked in its sauce after being sauteed so that really is enticing to eat with some rice. There is still some fruit salad in the freezer that needs to be finished out before new year comes because we surely have to make another batch again to be eaten at new year's eve.
I think that I have no more chance to gain weight because no matter how I try to eat much my system could not anymore take it as it gets haywired and crazy things happen especially in my current health where I am a dialysis patient and eating foods is not really that a subject that I can truly be excited with lest I will get it's side-effects.