Well diary you know for sure that I am a freak show to anyone who happen to see me anywhere and now I can with a simple camera technology can take a snapshot of those who indeed looks at me as if they are watching a horror film in one of its climactic scenes. I get that alot and sometimes these people whispers, smiles to each other, and stares especially children.
The thing that stops me from confronting them is my speech disability, breathlessness, and I cannot walk. So when those things happen I just stretch up my surgical mask up to my nose and down to my oversized chin. My mask helps to lessen the feelings-hurting reactions that other people does to me.
The haircutter that I was calling to service me up to cut my hair is no longer available as she tends her small eatery just a few houses away. I am also now embarrassed to call her up because I was not like this since she saw me just a few months ago. My head had overgrown ever since, so I do not want to freak her out or anything and I just resigned into cutting my own hair.
I now have a zero fashion statement and a zero hairstyle preference and I couldn't style my own hair with my electric hair clippers. Using a hair clipper will just leave me a little choice but to cut my hair with a one half or one-eight inch hair length or whatever. I just choose the shortest length so that it can buy me more days before I cut my hair again.
I would cut my hair with my cheap hair clipper that vibrates like a jackhammer in my hands. I just am careful not to drop it or I will leave the house with a bonnet on my head. After cutting I would seek the assistance of my mother to cut my sideburns and then the hairline around the ear area and the nape area and I am done.
The major reason for me cutting my hair short which I do not like because I have a nasty scar on my scalp brought about when me and my brother are fighting when we were kids and he chased me and I scraped it off with our window grill accidentally so I got stitches and a lasting scar after.
So the reason is because to lessen my time taking a bath via shampooing my hair. It is a pleasure for most people to take a bath, shampooing their hairs and scrubbing but not me anymore. It is just a misery especially when I am waterlogged and you can hear me groan as I gasp for air and battle out the pain all around. The at my room I will put on my underwear laying down on bed. It will be quite a work and I will do it tomorrow.