It has been drizzling all night with some rain making it to cool the place where I live and I am just glad that it didn't rain hard and it just stopped already but it makes it hard for me particularly to take a bath with these conditions and also for my parents like my mother who doesn't tolerate to cold bath anymore like when she was younger.
But I am now fed, bathed, and at the moment hooked-up for my weekend dialysis. This thing still gives me the worries of not completing it which is why I am telling you folks about my Caffeine use. I had told my nurse to put me in an alternating three times and two times dialysis schedule per week and let my self see what happens.
Obviously it will be different now as I go for my dialysis more frequently as before and certainly will achieve a better cleaning for my blood.
But it complicates things a bit because I cannot just take Caffeine everytime I would go for my sessions as it would really affect my health in a bad way.
My plan now is to not take Caffeine capsules in one of my sessions if I will be dialyzed three times a week because certainly I will not be able to sleep well in that week if everytime I would get hooked I will take those Caffeine pills.
The caffeine pills I believe is really a crucial factor about my dialysis, it gives me the confidence that at least I can complete my session although it doesn't work everytime because my blood pressure still goes crashing down at times.
Now I just hope that my plan would work but I guess it would not in a way to make me survive my session and I might get forced to revert back to the twice weekly schedule. But I do not like the twice a week schedule because it is hard to eat and it just doesn't do good anymore for me. But going for a thrice weekly even in an alternating week would incur additional time and effort and finances to expend not only for me but also for my parents.
So it just suck to get stuck between a hard place and a rock even with this dialysis sessions now. My body is not the way it was and now I am just doing desperate measures for me to complete my session so much so that I have to use Caffeine pills for that matter that in a way is just maybe hurting my body too. But what I can do? this is the only way that I can assure myself of a better quality dialysis. I hope that God would help me in every step of the way so I am asking prayers from you my friends, thank you.