A long time ago, I listened to the lecture that a pastor of a church gave to a group of people in a room, among the many things he said, he mentioned one that was very much engraved in my memory and in my heart.
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He told the story of a young man who had tried to commit suicide, the family was dismayed because he never noticed that something was happening to him. His brothers suffered, their parents mutually recriminated the responsibility they had in the fact. The young man was connected to a life-threatening mechanical ventilator and in the corridors of the hospital only pain and despair are breathed. So the days went by and each time the faces became more gray. The younger sister of the young man asked permission to visit him and they allowed him. She entered the room alone and the screams alerted the relatives who were in the waiting room; frightened they opened the door to see what was happening and heard the heartrending cries of the girl saying: why did you do this to us ?, why did not you ask for help ?, why did you have to do it this way ?, I hate what you did !, look how we are suffering! They closed the door again and burst into tears. Everyone in the waiting room thought like the girl. Someone had to be honest ...
This painful story reminds me of ourselves. Most of the time we feel lonely, sad, downcast by circumstances and when they ask us how we are, we put a smile that hides our true feeling, as if it were necessary to pretend that we are always well, which is not real. perfect marriage, a perfect job, perfect family. It is possible, you say, that in Christ we have peace and permanent contentment, and I agree with you, but we can not deny that there are more difficult days than others and those do not make us less "worthy" of receiving the love of our Father. Maybe the sadness instead of lasting three days, will last us 3 hours ... but we will also experience it because our organism is programmed to feel it.
The above reminds me of the passage that appears at the beginning of the book of Nehemiah. Hanani, brother of Nehemiah tells him that the wall of Jerusalem was torn down, and that the gates were consumed by fire. Faced with this fateful news, Nehemiah answers the following:
"When I heard this, I sat down to cry. In fact, for several days I was in mourning, I fasted and prayed to the God of heaven "Nehemiah 1: 4 (NLT)
Nehemiah gives us a clear example of reaction to bad news. He was a man of God, he was tremendously brave, but before this news he CRYED LIKE ANY HUMAN BEING, moreover, DURING SEVERAL DAYS HE WAS IN DUEL and I think we all share that when you are in a duel, you are not exactly being more optimistic that treads the earth, if not quite the opposite (of course, depending on which stage of the duel we are, but initially this considers a lot of sadness and uneasiness). This man was honest with God and showed him his pain, his grief, his sadness and bitterness. All the above accompanied by prayer and fasting.
I want to emphasize this last. It is not necessary to be strong as a rock for God, it is not necessary to pretend with Him that things do not hurt us. It does not matter how fragile we look in front of Him. He will always believe that we are strong because we are His children and we have His power, but He also knows what our nature is. The word says: say the strong weak I am, because His power is perfected in our weakness. I am of the people who show me how I am before God, I give my burdens, my feelings, things that I can not carry, and I receive consolation, in some moments I will receive exhortation but always with the love of a Father, will guide us, will comfort
God is not frightened with your tears or your tantrums!
In fact, He is waiting for you to start acting. The next time you live a difficult situation, I invite you to be honest with God and if you need to cry three days in a row, do it, until he lord heal those wounds and restore that heart.