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They say that time heals all wounds, but some losses are so devastating that they leave us forever scarred. That's how I feel about losing my first love and best friend in a car accident years ago - still haunted by the pain of what could have been. It's a tragedy that has remained unsolved, a story of shattered dreams and unanswered questions.
On February 14, I received a phone call - the day after my birthday. I was informed that my closest friend and love one had been involved in an auto accident. Stunned, I couldn't believe this had happened. We had so many plans for our future together, yet now those prospects were left in ruins. We first encountered each other through an unusual set of circumstances: she lived in the adjacent building, on the fourth floor. Because of a fear of dogs, her lap-dog barking at me became a regular occurrence. To my surprise, she decided to offer advice instead of making me feel embarrasssed. She said something wise beyond her years: "Fears should be faced head on or else they can become overwhelming". This resonated with me and is something I remind myself of when conversing with people over disagreements - never judge one by years - for some children are quite mature despite their young age and can teach us life lessons we may have missed out on.
The pain I felt in that moment was unlike anything I had ever experienced in my life. I was devastated. I lost my best friend, my first love, and a piece of myself that day. The days following her death were a blur. I went through the motions of everyday life, but I was numb inside. I felt like I was living in a nightmare that I couldn’t wake up from. It’s been 16 years since she died, but the hurt is still there. The hole she left in my heart has never been filled. I think about her every day and wonder what could have been if that fateful night hadn’t happened. Zori’s death changed me forever. It made me realize that life is fragile and can be taken away at any moment. No one knows when their time will come, so we have to make the most of every minute we have.
The police discharged the criminal without me ever learning his identity. That night, on my birthday, she was planning to reveal her affections for me but I was too busy on the computer game and that led me to hurt her. It took me a while to realise how treasurable what I lost was. Maybe due to unexpressed emotions, I became who I am today - constantly seeking love which is not fair for the rest because maybe I'm looking for a way to replace that piece of my heart that's gone. Contemplating how things would have been if she were still here is something that will always persist but what consolations me is that if I had not gone through all of this my son would never be here. Therefore, never judge a person due to their appearances as it takes courage to understand their suffering.
Through this piece, I hope that I can finally find closure and some peace in knowing that people are aware of Zori’s story. She deserves to be remembered, so I am sharing my story with the world in hopes that others might remember her too. We should treasure our time together, live without regrets, and stay humble because we never know when a tragedy might strike. My story serves as a reminder of how unpredictable life can be - no one is immune from suffering tragedies or hardships at any given moment. Life must go on even though it's sometimes too difficult for us to do so we have to find a way forward even when we lose those closest to us.
Let our children not grow up in a terrible world. Together we can make it better. It is our destiny to
suffer from the past, to long for the future, but to forget the present.
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