I want to end

I want to end
all these complicated puzzles
which I made myself and confused how to end it

I want to get rid of this
the pain you give without you knowing it
the pain that made me almost dying
and almost become a corpse

I want to end but I run
I want to forget but I just approached

Love is complicated, love is hard
It's complicated if only I love
And it's hard for me to handle you

I am stupid !
still expecting you
hope all that I am always waiting for
I am stupid !
still living in delusional behavior
still believe in that impossible dream
and still believe, that everything will be beautiful in time ...