"The most merciful thing in the world, I think, is the inability of the human mind to correlate all its contents... some day the piecing together of dissociated knowledge will open up such terrifying vistas of reality, and of our frightful position therein, that we shall either go mad from the revelation or flee from the light into the peace and safety of a new Dark Age."
~ H. P. Lovecraft
This has always been one of the most chilling paragraphs I have ever read, because every day I find it to be more true. The more truth comes out, the more the people cling hard to their illusions out of fear. Nearly no one wants to admit that we live in an extremely chaotic world, and that order was never, and increasingly, isnt.
Some take the truth to extremes, building on wacky conspiracy theories that they dont realize are so fantastical and unrealistic. But Alan Moore did a great job of expressing why this is.
"The main thing that I learned about conspiracy theory, is that conspiracy theorists believe in a conspiracy because that is more comforting. The truth of the world is that it is actually chaotic. The truth is that it is not The Iluminati, or The Jewish Banking Conspiracy, or the Gray Alien Theory. The truth is far more frightening - Nobody is in control. The world is rudderless." Alan MooreNow, I am not saying that there are no conspiracies taking place. There are countless conspiracies in action, but there is hardly an order among them all, and this is something that bothers people. They dont like to confront the bounds of their ignorance.
But the world seems to be more exciting when we are ignorant. We get to spend our days being surprised, offended and overwhelmingly fearful, a reactive and unconscious soul dead-walking in herds, believing mainstream media and allowing pop culture and Hollywood to train our senses more than the real world, to entertain ourselves to death; numb us to life.
Then there are the "unfortunate" few of us, unmoved by the electronic hallucinations, sad and appalled at the multitude of people made to forget who and where they are in relation to the all, people walking over cliffs and eating poison at every turn, and bitching out loud the very things their unconscious actions birth.
Now more than ever, we have the ability and tools to know well enough, but most choose to look at the sun over what it is luminating. They choose screens over self, worshiping "stars" that are not even real, blue pilled, left-hand pathed, idolizing false light creations, and thus complete ignorance to natural order and truth.
Many people think my understanding of this is self defeating, and all the reason to blue pill myself some more, escaping into the cult of positivity, but I realize that while...
"The ignorant and the deluded are, I think, in a strange way to be envied. That which is not known of does not trouble us, while an imagined but insubstantial peril does not harm us. To know the truths behind reality is a far greater burden." H. P. LovecraftAnd then...
“I am only about half alive—a large part of my strength is consumed in sitting up or walking. My nervous system is a shattered wreck, and I am absolutely bored & listless save when I come upon something which peculiarly interests me. However—so many things do interest me, & interest me intensely, in science, history, philosophy, & literature; that I have never actually desired to die, or entertained any suicidal designs, as might be expected of one with so little kinship to the ordinary features of life.” H. P. LovecraftIm doing just fine. I may not jump all the time, constantly triggered and dumbfounded at every "news" story, but dont let my stoic nature fool you. I just see through and deeper into things. One is no less "alive", just because they are not constantly reacting to things in the common fashion.
And this truth may just be the greatest, that nothing scares us as much as our own ignorance, for it is a darkness with no end, and from where all perceived horrors arise.
With love,
Doc