---A Stream-of-Consciousness Self-Narrative---
Nearly everyone has procrastinated at something in our lives whether it be homework, a project, studying, or chores. But what drives this perpetual waiting and how do we conquer it? Procrastination seems to start at a young age with very small tasks and work, usually related to school. This type of procrastination is usually attributed to laziness and sometimes this is true. Being physically, emotionally, or spiritually drained can also cause a lack of drive as well. But when it comes to work, activities, or habits that you want to start, you sometimes hesitate for a long time or do not even start to try to change in the first place. This type of procrastination stems from a long-standing emotional blockage. Procrastinators that hesitate to meet new people or trying new activities but want to change, need to address this cause of concern. Unfortunately, most procrastinators will procrastinate at fixing their procrastination! It is a self-fulfilling prophecy of hesitation, always afraid to start something new. This is why procrastination must be broken if it is fear-based. Procrastination based in laziness is much easier to fix (sometimes) and that usually involves changing the emotional state of ourselves as well.
Fear preventing change inflicts so many people and it is attributed to rejection from another, thinking they are going to fail or not be good at the activity, or just outright paralysis of performing the action because it is an unknown in your universe. This type of fear can be crippling to the type of potential that you have, so clearing it out of the way is a must. Most emotional blockages also come with their fair share of physical blockages such as stress, so shifting your mental state to more positive and uplifting thoughts is huge. Meditation, yoga, deep breathing exercises, and grounding yourself to the Earth will help to release negative thoughts.
Starting small is essential; you need to crawl before you walk. If you procrastinate but want to start working out, do not just go buy a gym pass all willy nilly. Try to do home exercises for at least a month, holding yourself to a schedule. If you are very weak-willed, just start off with 15 minute exercises each day for a week or two and increase your time. Once your able to trust yourself that you will always make room for your exercise, you can get a gym membership. Other things such as meeting new people or working can seem impossible but employ a similar tactic: just start small. If you want to meet new people, take small steps such as joining a group or activity that does not have rigorous requirements to be a part of and begin to interact with others. Volunteering is a cool way to meet others that are interested in helping others. Start volunteering a hour a week at a shelter or church or participate in fundraising events to start meeting new people. As your fear starts to slowly dwindle away, you will notice how much it affected every decision you've made and this new found freedom can lead to vast improvements in your outlook on life as well as give rise to many new relationships and work-related opportunities.
You hear some people say they regret not following their dreams or at least trying, whether it is due to a lack of resources, a lack of direction, or a paralysis of fear. It is important to never let this feeling occur. Never settle, always strive and have direction towards a goal that is worthy for you and others. Be wise and constantly take steps to achieve your feats. Conquering your fear is the first step.
Afterword
Hello everyone, this was my first attempt at stream-of-consciousness style of writing. These represent significant thoughts that I have had in my life and in this narrative I am talking to myself. But I thought that maybe others have similar thoughts so I decided to make a post about the hesitation that we can all feel sometime, whether it is social anxiety, fear of rejection, or a lack of effort. I have come along way with my procrastination but I am far from perfect. 😅 Many times, I find myself pondering how to improve my self-perceived weaknesses and this is an example of how my thoughts go and I just found it kind of funny. It is so simple, yet I still feel that fear today, but I am stronger than it. And so are you. 😇 Namaste beautiful souls.