My early twenties was a little whirlpool. I am 23 years old when I got pregnant with my first son. It was awesome. At that time I was still with my husband and was my childhood lover. After our son was born, we built a house in Tunbridge Wells, I quit my job and became a full time mother. My husband had a wonderful and wealthy job, so we went to a beautiful house. And it is long before the second son comes.
My life was wonderful from the outside but I had a hard time. I felt a lot of pressure to be a perfect mother. When my boy attended school, this worsened further. I could not compare myself with other mothers. And I think their children were truly polite and happy. I was not confident of my ability to lose my boy in the right way for me.
Depression and anxiety became thick and fast. I was prescribed antidepressant medicine, but I quickly recognized that they are not for me. I feel like I'm sitting in the garden and away from my boy. It seemed that I was looking at them through the screen. I stopped taking medication and eventually asked for other means of finding homeopathy and yoga.
After this, my life was a different course, I broke up with my husband. A part of my recovery was to let things go, be responsible for my life and start thinking about the right things for me. For a long time, I took in the idea of ​​who I am of someone else. I was afraid of breaking the image, but it made me miserable.
Wisdom is growing with the times, I am satisfied with my new partner and my whole life. I am aware that myself is not much harder and everything is not perfect.
The greatest lesson for me was that I became a mother in that I lose the impulse to make it perfect. That's not everything for me, it's all. Children have their own opinions and sometimes tell the truth more than adults. They also told me that they can not always keep a neat and clean house at all times. I was pregnant for many years, so I could not maintain the shape and appearance of my body.
My advice to young people is to find hobbies and passions that bring you joy and do not compare yourself to others. Sometimes it is the greatest failure that we are teaching the most valuable lessons and collapsing things is not the end of the world. That is the chance to rebuild it.
