There are so many decisions to be made everyday.
The choices we make will change the course of our lives forever. Even the smallest of decisions may turn out to be the most impactful choices we ever make.
It can be easy to get caught up in the decision making process, especially when we are feeling under pressure to move forward. Sometimes we feel we must at least try something....try to make things happen...try to weigh all our options....try to get things done.
Trying, trying, trying!
A quick google search defines trying like this: try·ing ˈtrīiNG/ adjective
difficult or annoying; hard to endure.
"it had been a very trying day"
synonyms:
stressful, taxing, demanding, difficult, tough, hard, pressured, frustrating, fraught; arduous, grueling, tiring, exhausting;
informalhellish
"a trying day"
annoying, irritating, exasperating, maddening, infuriating;
tiresome, irksome, troublesome, bothersome, vexing;
informalaggravating
"Steve was very trying"
I find that "trying" is based on lack of clarity. Trying is simply attempting, while leaving room for the possibility that we will fail. Spinning our wheels to try to make something happen can be a huge waste of time, as things can be "hard" when undertaking forward motion while still muddled with doubt. Our actions will likely not be fruitful until we are clear on what we truly want.
For me, even when I feel I am clear on what I want, I sometimes think I know how to make it happen, and what steps to take. I then do well to remember not to get attached or have expectations. I know that in the light of infinite perspective, I may be limiting myself by merely trying to make things happen in the way I want them to, when truly, ANYTHING could happen, perhaps even in ways I could have never imagined.
I have never been the best decision maker, a deficit I have carried on from my childhood. But I am getting better at it, as I strengthen my intuition. I have huge faith that the Universe will provide. And as I stand in that faith and remember what is important to me, synchronicity seems to deliver opportunities right to my front door. I get surprises that seem to appear out of the blue: an important phone call, a chance meeting, a mention from a stranger.... As long as I'm paying attention to the little things that come into my awareness, I follow the leads and the decision can almost make itself.
When my decision making seems to have failed me and things are happening that I don't want to happen, I remind myself to embrace everything, regardless of what it looks like from my limited perspective. I don't ever really know how things will turn out, so I sit in remembrance that it is all part of the process. Adversity will likely make me stronger, and give me the opportunity to return again to faith.
My most recent and frequent mantra and reminder that all is perfect, right now: