God is a wonderful Man. So kind and gracious, merciful even unto the worst sinner. There is no need to condemn yourself when GOD has not.
In Matthew Jesus asked the adulterous woman, "where are your accusers?" and she replied that they had all gone. Jesus told her, since they did not condemn her, He would not condemn her.
That is mercy, mercy is what we as man do not deserve but we get from the loving Father. Like I say, GOD is not a wicked Man. He only waits for every one to come to Him. Jesus said when we sin we have an advocate with the Father who pleads our case before GOD, standing as an intercessor on our behalf.
Jesus is the advocate. Jesus is the one that can plead your case to GOD. The devil always tries to make us feel guilty with the wrongs we made, yes his accusations are true but Jesus said I will stand as an advocate on your behalf. The greatest love that was tested and approved is the love GOD had and has for humanity.
Even when Jesus was breathing His last, He (GOD) left Him (Jesus) there, because He saw you not the blood. Beloved, indeed you have sinned against GOD and committed the sin not acceptable before GOD and before man.
But GOD said my mercies are renewed every morning. Ask for a new mercy, go boldly to GOD not with joy that you have sinned but with joy that you are forgiven.
Although Jesus comforted us that we have an advocate whenever we sin, He will never wish for anyone to continue in sin. Jesus never condemned the adulterous woman but He told her sin no more. Dear beloved, your sins are forgiven and forgotten when you ask for mercy.
Go to GOD with a humility of heart and receive forgiveness for sin.