Believe it or not, some people don’t favor sex. I’ve always felt different than everyone around me. When I went to my Sr prom, my friends asked me if I was swiping my V-card afterwards with my date. I said “no,” and they said everyone swipes their V-card after prom. I wasn’t into my date like that, just platonically. I remember when I was in the 10th grade, a girl started a rumor that I got knocked up. I wasn’t even dating, and I found sex as fun as watching paint dry. If I knew what asexuality was at the time, I could have made the girl feel stupid. “I’m asexual, sex is gross. Last time I checked, humans don’t reproduce asexually.”
I am asexual, which means I don’t experience sexual attraction. Now this is a spectrum. Some folks may experience attraction very little, build the attraction connecting to the person, and not experience it at all. Some may favor sex once they connect to the person, while others are repulsed completely. I’m repulsed completely.
I was subtle when I told my mom, and she followed with “I haven’t met the right person.”
I met this guy at the eatery, I made a blog post about this. Afterwards, I haven’t heard from him in 2 weeks. 2 weeks later, he called me in the middle of the night, desperate for me to come to his house. I’m like, “What the hell, dude.” I was too autistic to realize he wanted sex until he spit it out. I did find his behavior quite suspicious. When I said I wasn’t coming, he got desperate. Who acts this desperate when you won’t go to their house? It’s not that deep. When I text my friend to ask if I can come and he’s busy, I reply with “Ok, let me know when you’re free.”
Once he spilled the beans, I bailed. I didn’t want sex. I thought it was best to bail than to lead him on. I hate being single, at the same time, it’s hard to find someone who doesn’t want kids and sex. I would rather be with someone who will be OK with me not wanting kids and sex than be with someone I have to convince to accept this, or will resent me for not giving them kids/pleasure.
Also, we barely knew each other. So, folks do it with anyone? They don’t wait until they’re sure the relationship will work… I can tell I’m demiromantic. Demiromantic is like Demisexual except I need to form a bond to be into you romantically rather than sexually.. He instantly liked me. All I had to do was enter a building, while I had to form a bond with someone. I like being demi. This prevents me from falling for someone too early, only to be hurt when I learn they’re not single.. He also went on a tangent, saying he wanted to get me knocked up because he’s scared due to people dying, and he wanted to do something before he died. So.. why not something less drastic like traveling, skydiving? He was not thinking correctly. Kids die at a young age all the time. He never thought about the chances the kid could die before it’s born or at a young age, causing his trauma all over again.
Once he came out of it, he said he was “kidding” but wanted kids. After that, I bailed. I don’t want kids. Men wanting kids is on par with a kid wanting a puppy. The kid expects the mom to take care of the dog. The men will expect the mom to do all of the work with the kid on top of keeping the crib clean. Relationships will only work if BOTH of you don’t want kids or both of you do.
Also, I was at the subway, and the sandwich maker asked me if I had done the deed. He weirdly asked me. He asked me if I chopped. I’m like ‘idk what the hell that means.” Then he dumbed it down for me. When I said “no,” he was so surprised. So we’re asking strangers about their bedroom activity? That sandwhch maker was mad creepy. On a different day, he made comments and stared at my “pouch.” What the hell did he think I was, a Kangaroo? I didn’t see him after his inappropriate comments, so I assume he was fired. W Subway! He had to have been fired because I’ve seen every other sandwich maker I’ve seen before. It’s inappropriate to ask strangers about their bedroom activity. That would be like me asking him his pickle size.
Also, I thought a train was coming and stopped to film it. Only for it to pull out of the yard and turn off the lights. A guy flagged me down to ask me for my number. I am uncomfortable giving my number to guys I do not know well enough. It’s a safety thing. This is someone I do not know well enough. It’s a different story if a friend knows them. If your friend is OK with them, they have to be cool, right?
This is an expert of my substack article. You can read more on my substack.
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