Most days, you just can't explain how you are feeling and why you are feeling a certain way that is unlike you. Just wound up in your own thoughts with so much commotion going on, no place to pour it out, no place to scream it in, no place to share it with, just yourself and your thoughts carrying and battling with whatever is happening to you.
It's funny how people look at you and are like "You should have told someone" meanwhile they know that they will do nothing else but make a mockery of you. They make a mockery of situations they have never been in, and make light of situations that if they were in such situations, they wouldn't be standing or smiling like you are right now.
People are no longer interested in what you are going through, but the funny thing is once you die and the many challenges surrounding ones death begin to pop up, you would hear things like "he should have spoken up, She should have spoken up" but they forget that they were still the one's that complained about wanting pity party when you spoke up, they forget that they once said "You are not the only one going through challenges in life, so fight your battles alone or hide your pain and stop looking for help"
The beautiful one anyone can do for themselves is having a loyal circle because life will teach you, life will stretch you and at those moments, it is only loyal circles that will be there, it is only the loyal circle that will be able to hold your hands with words of encouragement and support.
Life has taught us that your greatest protection is not money, popularity, or even strength, but the kind of people we have around us when life becomes difficult. A loyal inner circle is rare but if you have one, you are rich because they will stick with you and together even to the end of the earth.
I am not going to lie, life has sat me down and taught me a whole lot and when I look at my past years, I just wish I had been conscious of these lessons because they are a hack to living stress-free and less anxious or less worried over things, situations, and people. I look at people today and I wonder, why didn't I see them this way years back, why didn't I take my time to know that these are who they are and stop making excuses for their behaviours and actions, these thoughts mess my mind and head today, that I just look at them and I am flabbergasted that I allowed them into my space.