Recently, something weird happened and some eye opening mysteries were dropped upon me. It isolated me from other people, and I was not the same person anymore. Leaving the other discussions for later, I will straight away come to the point.
Since childhood, I was a happy go lucky girl. I used to become one of the most popular person's of every place that I joined, resulting in so many friends as people were always trying to talk to me and I always tried to enjoy myself with so many people around. But suddenly I realised, I was doing it all wrong and it is time that you should realise this too.
Even after having 1000 contacts in my phone, 2500 followers on facebook and 35,000 followers on instagram, I realised I was still alone. I found out that even though I had a family, a cute boyfriend, so many friends and just too many followers, I was still alone. Because when the times were tough, I didn't feel like talking to anybody and I just wanted my problems to be solved. I thought a lot, I spent alone time deliberately to come out of these situations and I did it, but I did it all alone, and then I realized, being alone is not a curse but a blessing, because those people outside are themselves so confused, sleeping, unaware of their own selves. I realized that being amongst them, trying to gain their attention would only take me farther away from myself, trapping me more in my problems.
I wanted to be popular for that feeling, that feeling of acceptance and appreciation from a large number of people. Why? Because I myself didn't accept and appreciate myself ever and so I wanted someone else to do it for me. I wanted someone else as a proof to confirm me that I am worthy and we can't be accepted by others until we ourselves accept ourselves. We can't be loved by others until we love ourselves.
I started loving myself, I started getting close to myself, I started being alone to spend time with an amazing miracle I found I was and you too will find when you do the same and that is why, I dropped all my wishes to be accepted by anybody else, I dropped my wishes to be famous.
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