Recently I've been having so many challenges on how to balance my life here on Hive and offline and that's because I feel like I do too much here and even though people are always telling me well done I still feel like I'm not worthy of all of it. I just wish I could find the answers I seek but the problem is I can't even get the questions out of me and that only means getting answers will be almost impossible.
In life no matter what you do you will never be able to feel satisfied especially if you have so many people around you who are expecting so much from you and even some who just don't want you to do so much. I've always loved doing the things that makes me feel happy and appreciative but then somehow, something just comes by that snatch my joy away and I've been struggling with it for awhile now but it doesn't seem to go away but hey, I will be fine, I just have to be fine.
I'm healthy, I have a family that care so much for me, I have friends that always cheer me up and I have God who always come through for me just as he is doing now making me share my burden with whoever cares. And writing this now I just feel relieved a little and I hope to feel much better even at the end of this write up. I actually have all I need to make me happy, so why do I still feel so sad and troubled? I'm just so confused right now, the why, why, why just keep coming into my head and I don't have answers for any of them.
Well, today was okay, I just pray tomorrow be better and fair to me. I know that not every day goes as you want it to and I'm sure today was just that day for me and I pray tomorrow will be better for me. I'm not sure what I'm saying but I'm just letting my hands type what it feels like and I just feel better so that's fine for me.
I'm not okay but I want to be and I'm trying so hard to be but it feels like the more I try, the more I get it all wrong so from today I don't want to try anymore, I just want to do what I can do and just leave the rest. I will do what makes me happy, I will keep on smiling, I will keep on making people smile in any way I can and just be me, it's fine if you don't like me for me but that's who I am and I think that's what the world needs, ME.
If you were able to read this, thank you so much for stopping by, I'm really grateful.
See you until next time.