<?xml version="1.0" encoding="UTF-8"?><rss xmlns:dc="http://purl.org/dc/elements/1.1/" xmlns:content="http://purl.org/rss/1.0/modules/content/" xmlns:atom="http://www.w3.org/2005/Atom" version="2.0"><channel><title><![CDATA[RSS Feed]]></title><description><![CDATA[RSS Feed]]></description><link>http://direct.ecency.com</link><image><url>http://direct.ecency.com/logo512.png</url><title>RSS Feed</title><link>http://direct.ecency.com</link></image><generator>RSS for Node</generator><lastBuildDate>Wed, 15 Apr 2026 12:06:10 GMT</lastBuildDate><atom:link href="http://direct.ecency.com/@i-juggler/rss" rel="self" type="application/rss+xml"/><item><title><![CDATA[Polar Opposite, Same As Me]]></title><description><![CDATA[The next couple days flew by. It was like I was floating on a cloud. It feels so relieving to have something to look forward to. When I was younger, I would always have a crush; someone who I would long]]></description><link>http://direct.ecency.com/life/@i-juggler/polar-opposite-same-as-me</link><guid isPermaLink="true">http://direct.ecency.com/life/@i-juggler/polar-opposite-same-as-me</guid><category><![CDATA[life]]></category><dc:creator><![CDATA[i-juggler]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Fri, 14 Dec 2018 12:55:45 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://images.ecency.com/p/2bP4pJr4wVimqCWjYimXJe2cnCgnKLCp6nuLPvf8spa?format=match&amp;mode=fit" length="0" type="false"/></item><item><title><![CDATA[Meeting a Man]]></title><description><![CDATA[Something has happened. Something amazing. I can’t even. I met a man. I’m bursting just writing that. His name is Marty. I haven’t stopped smiling since we started talking at the Funk n Waffle. We clicked]]></description><link>http://direct.ecency.com/life/@i-juggler/meeting-a-man</link><guid isPermaLink="true">http://direct.ecency.com/life/@i-juggler/meeting-a-man</guid><category><![CDATA[life]]></category><dc:creator><![CDATA[i-juggler]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Thu, 13 Dec 2018 21:16:15 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://images.ecency.com/p/2bP4pJr4wVimqCWjYimXJe2cnCgnBh614UsprGSDWDC?format=match&amp;mode=fit" length="0" type="false"/></item><item><title><![CDATA[A Lack of Support]]></title><description><![CDATA[I got a bag today from a support group for people with mood disorders. It was lime green and had the word “Humana” on it. I did not know what it meant , but it suits me: like human, but not quite. (I later]]></description><link>http://direct.ecency.com/life/@i-juggler/a-lack-of-support</link><guid isPermaLink="true">http://direct.ecency.com/life/@i-juggler/a-lack-of-support</guid><category><![CDATA[life]]></category><dc:creator><![CDATA[i-juggler]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Wed, 12 Dec 2018 21:05:54 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://images.ecency.com/p/2bP4pJr4wVimqCWjYimXJe2cnCgn8icWYdTuhfqe6vi?format=match&amp;mode=fit" length="0" type="false"/></item><item><title><![CDATA[A Step Forward]]></title><description><![CDATA[How rapidly the tides change. I am ecstatic. I feel incredible! I finally did it. I finally broke out of my shell and let myself be free. I had sex with a man. It felt incredible, and it has made my mind]]></description><link>http://direct.ecency.com/life/@i-juggler/a-step-forward</link><guid isPermaLink="true">http://direct.ecency.com/life/@i-juggler/a-step-forward</guid><category><![CDATA[life]]></category><dc:creator><![CDATA[i-juggler]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Tue, 11 Dec 2018 14:46:24 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://images.ecency.com/p/2bP4pJr4wVimqCWjYimXJe2cnCgnGc74Syre7rqZUqU?format=match&amp;mode=fit" length="0" type="false"/></item><item><title><![CDATA[Perspective of Pain]]></title><description><![CDATA[I tossed and turned all night, unable to find any peace of mind. I wound up crying a bit, as I had done earlier yesterday. I feel so undesirable. Not only am I on the verge of homelessness; I am a reject]]></description><link>http://direct.ecency.com/life/@i-juggler/perspective-of-pain</link><guid isPermaLink="true">http://direct.ecency.com/life/@i-juggler/perspective-of-pain</guid><category><![CDATA[life]]></category><dc:creator><![CDATA[i-juggler]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Sat, 08 Dec 2018 21:46:45 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://images.ecency.com/p/2bP4pJr4wVimqCWjYimXJe2cnCgnLqH8EQnZuBp3YCE?format=match&amp;mode=fit" length="0" type="false"/></item><item><title><![CDATA[Touched By A Stranger]]></title><description><![CDATA[It’s now Saturday night. Something happened. I feel embarrassed writing about it, but at the same time I’m not. There was a big push in the cult to teach us that there is no shame. At least that’s what]]></description><link>http://direct.ecency.com/blog/@i-juggler/touched-by-a-stranger</link><guid isPermaLink="true">http://direct.ecency.com/blog/@i-juggler/touched-by-a-stranger</guid><category><![CDATA[blog]]></category><dc:creator><![CDATA[i-juggler]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Fri, 07 Dec 2018 15:40:45 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://images.ecency.com/p/2bP4pJr4wVimqCWjYimXJe2cnCgnCe2uBAuczRssfFt?format=match&amp;mode=fit" length="0" type="false"/></item><item><title><![CDATA[Trapped in My Head]]></title><description><![CDATA[It’s Saturday, and I have been alone for most of the day. I’m mostly reflecting while being productive. I keep trying to push myself to do more but my mind keeps wandering. I wanted to go for a walk, but]]></description><link>http://direct.ecency.com/life/@i-juggler/trapped-in-my-head</link><guid isPermaLink="true">http://direct.ecency.com/life/@i-juggler/trapped-in-my-head</guid><category><![CDATA[life]]></category><dc:creator><![CDATA[i-juggler]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Thu, 06 Dec 2018 14:33:06 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://images.ecency.com/p/2bP4pJr4wVimqCWjYimXJe2cnCgnAhBFt1sNBLNQDDx?format=match&amp;mode=fit" length="0" type="false"/></item><item><title><![CDATA[The Healing Begins]]></title><description><![CDATA[My friend and fellow juggler, Lawrence, has let me stay at his place with my two other friends, Sean and Robb. I just got back upstairs after having a slice of pizza. I’m crying because of it. It’s such]]></description><link>http://direct.ecency.com/life/@i-juggler/the-healing-begins</link><guid isPermaLink="true">http://direct.ecency.com/life/@i-juggler/the-healing-begins</guid><category><![CDATA[life]]></category><dc:creator><![CDATA[i-juggler]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Wed, 05 Dec 2018 13:50:09 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://images.ecency.com/p/2bP4pJr4wVimqCWjYimXJe2cnCgnJbVgTWN3qZYnG6r?format=match&amp;mode=fit" length="0" type="false"/></item><item><title><![CDATA[Start of a Journey]]></title><description><![CDATA[As of a few hours ago, I am homeless. I am sitting at the local Mini Mart, trying to figure out my next move. I’m messaging people, and waiting to hear back from a friend I trust. Worst case scenario,]]></description><link>http://direct.ecency.com/life/@i-juggler/start-of-a-journey</link><guid isPermaLink="true">http://direct.ecency.com/life/@i-juggler/start-of-a-journey</guid><category><![CDATA[life]]></category><dc:creator><![CDATA[i-juggler]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Tue, 04 Dec 2018 17:02:48 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://images.ecency.com/p/2bP4pJr4wVimqCWjYimXJe2cnCgn8vUBJBbBnyP9zsp?format=match&amp;mode=fit" length="0" type="false"/></item><item><title><![CDATA[Rebirth and Reawakening]]></title><description><![CDATA[Yesterday, I took four hits of LSD. The experience was more than I could possibly put into words. It was easily one of the most transformative experiences of my life. I will attempt to unravel some of]]></description><link>http://direct.ecency.com/life/@i-juggler/rebirth-and-reawakening</link><guid isPermaLink="true">http://direct.ecency.com/life/@i-juggler/rebirth-and-reawakening</guid><category><![CDATA[life]]></category><dc:creator><![CDATA[i-juggler]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Thu, 23 Aug 2018 13:45:21 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://images.ecency.com/p/X37EMQ9WSwsKQG7nhCXMsgXxUQHwtJm4rGgDFSP27G8Nse5UibYZEMxE3XpxJUBkbybTR9NXbC8uKaMFJWVvKQXdndi2FW3k7TdTc?format=match&amp;mode=fit" length="0" type="false"/></item><item><title><![CDATA[Denial]]></title><description><![CDATA[What is truth when there are lies To hide the world behind these eyes? Can’t admit; denial never quits Will never answer: who is it? What is the nature of this creature That feels as its dominant feature?]]></description><link>http://direct.ecency.com/lgbt/@i-juggler/denial</link><guid isPermaLink="true">http://direct.ecency.com/lgbt/@i-juggler/denial</guid><category><![CDATA[lgbt]]></category><dc:creator><![CDATA[i-juggler]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Mon, 20 Aug 2018 22:24:18 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://images.ecency.com/p/7ohP4GDMGPrTps6cjBmVHvN4WKRELnFy9u363NA4sovnHTaMGnDcGiw6br5LEC1fQPN29jGKSLqTutp2NcDgKerKK28W23WLtZxi?format=match&amp;mode=fit" length="0" type="false"/></item><item><title><![CDATA[Stepping out of my comfort zone]]></title><description><![CDATA[Today, I stepped out of my comfort zone. My intent was to go to the civic center downtown, apply for the benefits I need, and then go get my long-overdue permit at the DMV. 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I needed to fill]]></description><link>http://direct.ecency.com/life/@i-juggler/stream-of-consciousness-6-ripping-off-the-band-aid</link><guid isPermaLink="true">http://direct.ecency.com/life/@i-juggler/stream-of-consciousness-6-ripping-off-the-band-aid</guid><category><![CDATA[life]]></category><dc:creator><![CDATA[i-juggler]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Thu, 16 Aug 2018 18:52:51 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://images.ecency.com/p/mXkfdToSwHxyVySZpuLfU8yQ6r3QxqS7YGenoRHRF6DndxgWiDUWNSpHpuWD2az5ExTs64RsP1TMWzNhbGHjK4NSV62FW4tA2mbMigZUa?format=match&amp;mode=fit" length="0" type="false"/></item><item><title><![CDATA[Jesus has a voice]]></title><description><![CDATA[It sounds like this: "Thump thump Thump thump Thump thump."]]></description><link>http://direct.ecency.com/religion/@i-juggler/jesus-has-a-voice</link><guid isPermaLink="true">http://direct.ecency.com/religion/@i-juggler/jesus-has-a-voice</guid><category><![CDATA[religion]]></category><dc:creator><![CDATA[i-juggler]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Thu, 16 Aug 2018 01:00:24 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://images.ecency.com/p/axopCyouerJVjtYzo7PSt5XtxAsVPKZpPujcwNb4PjTnCAWynRddtMQZh7La?format=match&amp;mode=fit" length="0" type="false"/></item><item><title><![CDATA[Walking a Tightrope]]></title><description><![CDATA[I used to run track. I was pretty good at it. I won most of the time, and regularly put up impressive times. I owe much of my success to my ability to ignore my pain. I could dissociate in the moment and]]></description><link>http://direct.ecency.com/blog/@i-juggler/walking-a-tightrope</link><guid isPermaLink="true">http://direct.ecency.com/blog/@i-juggler/walking-a-tightrope</guid><category><![CDATA[blog]]></category><dc:creator><![CDATA[i-juggler]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Tue, 14 Aug 2018 14:15:51 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://images.ecency.com/p/MG5aEqKFcQi5xsGsUDYUN1LNu9Qi8onYittfhSMCpK247CjiYRxTpHZDadjdESL78d2eT3VEHj8L18ZBDMyB1SG9GYCGd9HPC?format=match&amp;mode=fit" length="0" type="false"/></item><item><title><![CDATA[Stream of Consciousness Journal 5: Resurrection]]></title><description><![CDATA[Today I went busking in my hometown of Syracuse again. This is the first time I've done this since I was taken advantage of by that cult, Earth Nation/Love Cycle. It was particularly nerve-wracking because]]></description><link>http://direct.ecency.com/blog/@i-juggler/stream-of-consciousness-journal-5-resurrection</link><guid isPermaLink="true">http://direct.ecency.com/blog/@i-juggler/stream-of-consciousness-journal-5-resurrection</guid><category><![CDATA[blog]]></category><dc:creator><![CDATA[i-juggler]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Mon, 13 Aug 2018 19:15:12 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://images.ecency.com/p/X37EMQ9WSwsKQG7nhCXMsgXxUQHwtJm4rGgDFSP27G8NseJCVJJWTm6GtJjPvCP7QqVdZDibYM4BnjwMXcJdn98eWJGVV8fDPGPPU?format=match&amp;mode=fit" length="0" type="false"/></item><item><title><![CDATA[Waking Up From Depression]]></title><description><![CDATA[I have schizophrenia. Along with the super fun delusions that the CIA is beaming thoughts in my head to get a sex change, I regularly oscillate from one extreme mood to the other. Some days, I am literally]]></description><link>http://direct.ecency.com/life/@i-juggler/waking-up-from-depression</link><guid isPermaLink="true">http://direct.ecency.com/life/@i-juggler/waking-up-from-depression</guid><category><![CDATA[life]]></category><dc:creator><![CDATA[i-juggler]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Sun, 12 Aug 2018 20:04:48 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://images.ecency.com/p/23KQwnti57stsAqnmyxQN5QPZRZvTFiCDfL7NC8SaXCTGut2G5EtEDeJUZLLfb992ojnJhAderjhBSMFuMuedpGms949uve?format=match&amp;mode=fit" length="0" type="false"/></item><item><title><![CDATA[God wants me to get a sex change]]></title><description><![CDATA[Last night I was browsing Reddit as my brain started to shut off in preparation for romping through dream space. As I refreshed the page, an ad caught my attention. 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I was routinely picked on as the weird kid, which admittedly,]]></description><link>http://direct.ecency.com/blog/@i-juggler/fear-and-loathing</link><guid isPermaLink="true">http://direct.ecency.com/blog/@i-juggler/fear-and-loathing</guid><category><![CDATA[blog]]></category><dc:creator><![CDATA[i-juggler]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Fri, 10 Aug 2018 18:56:09 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://images.ecency.com/p/23KQwnti57stsAqnmyxQN5QPZRZvTFiCDfL7NC8SaXCTGus9AzDgRAvYj7TkMvEYiJYx71hx4FTbNUA4NDzfrqVx9Ejv2SJ?format=match&amp;mode=fit" length="0" type="false"/></item><item><title><![CDATA[Ghostly Fetters]]></title><description><![CDATA[A clear sky is blue But what clouds will do Stain the heavens Rain comes from seven Scars on the arm Marred is my charm No second look Worse than a crook Seen as a freak Have to be meek Otherwise worse]]></description><link>http://direct.ecency.com/poem/@i-juggler/ghostly-fetters</link><guid isPermaLink="true">http://direct.ecency.com/poem/@i-juggler/ghostly-fetters</guid><category><![CDATA[poem]]></category><dc:creator><![CDATA[i-juggler]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Wed, 08 Aug 2018 14:05:33 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://images.ecency.com/p/X37EMQ9WSwsKQG7nhCXMsgXxUQHwtJm4rGgDFSP27G8NseJCVJJWUC8sTBt6wMgq5hThNi7W9rFcXKpyHR4i2AjhR5CiEmDdyawjc?format=match&amp;mode=fit" length="0" type="false"/></item></channel></rss>