Hi, guys!
As it turned out, my treatment gave very little or no result. Yesterday I tried to go back to work, but I managed to function for about four hours, after which I had a breakdown, after which I was back at the point where it all started and I again saw my psychiatric first aid kit not as a way to help myself, but as a way to quickly end everything. I screamed and cried until the evening, when my husband gave me an injection and I was able to fall asleep. I don’t know what to wish for next, because now everything turned out to be in vain, the treatment did not help me at all and I remained at the same point where I started.
I really need to go back to work, but it turns out that I absolutely cannot do this, because my condition is still extremely serious, and I just can’t sit down and concentrate. Today I have a meeting with my guru, maybe she will advise something good, in any case, I really hope so. Usually after talking with her I feel a lot of inspiration.
Now I’m going to go to the post office and pick up the parcels. I was supposed to have a lot of interesting things coming. Maybe it could at least lift my spirits a little. Then I wanted to work, but I'm not sure I'll be able to. I can't seem to muster up the willpower to start going to training, but I think I'll be able to soon. I need to have another small operation this month, but I think that's not a problem anymore.
Have a great day everyone!