A brush with Death, Reflections on a New Year, and the one that's Past.

Can I be more grateful to steem? for my life? I will. Living fully is the answer to fear and uncertainty. Tomorrow is not promised to anyone, all we have is today. Steem, and CryptoCurrency is a chance for me to rise above my circumstances. I'm learning marketable skills, cryptocurrency, investment, linux, and so much more.

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Recently, I tried to take my life because of poor judgment from the past, a history of drug abuse, and being haunted by a caricature of all that. I'm not going to get into all the details, here. I will say, that I was unsuccessful at dying, and surprisingly didn't hurt myself as bad as I could have. I'm pretty roughed up, but far from death.

The result of that is that I figured it wasn't my time, and it's a perfect time to make some good choices in life. I'm very grateful for my family, because it would have hurt them the most, and I'll be happy to have a chance to hug them some more and share life with them. I'm also grateful because of this community. It's finding Steem, and the BlockChain community that gave me a way to be productive and do more positive things with my life. Previously, I was just chasing around "feeling good" through sex, drugs, and careless living.

I'm ready to grow up, and into the productive member of life that I know is within me, within this cocoon, and forming into something beautiful. My deepest passion has always been learning, and there is so much to learn here

I've also made a commitment to myself to abstain from alcohol and sex for a year. Somehow, being reborn makes these commitments easy, though I know I'll have to stay strong when the temptation comes. I will, because I know those are the decisions that will enable me to stay focused on work, and building healthy relationships with the people around me. It's not that I think that there's anything wrong with sex, drugs, and alcohol. Personally, I've just never had a healthy relationship with them.

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Happy New Year, and blessings to you all! I'm so grateful for this community, and I'll do my best to be a positive, productive, and beneficial member as we move forward into this exciting new year.

The world finally knows about BitCoin, FOR REAL. They are beginning to become more and more aware of Steem and Steemit, which is exciting too. I'm taking an inventory of where I'm spending my time, and going to make some cuts some places, and figure out the most productive ways to spend it. This is the beginning of the rest of our lives. Best to choose wisely how to spend them.

I Love You!

and I Love myself again, too! <3 <3 <3