I want to do an introduceyourself post after more than a year on steemit... I waited a long time for this moment.

I waited more than a year to finally come out and do an introduction post. Now that the time has arrived.. I'm confused.

This is going to be a very short post by me.

I usually have no problem talking about other things going on steemit, life, the news, crypto, anything.

I do have a problem talking about me though..

Because, in my viewpoint, I really don't matter. The bigger picture matters.

When I first joined steemit more than a year ago, I saw introduceyourself posts that made over $2,000 USD non-stop when STEEM was worth $4 each.

I had the temptation to "just do it like everyone else".. and I made a decision NOT to... and I've never regretted that..

I never wanted to milk the reward pool for content about "me"....

It just seems so self absorbed, so selfish, so monetary...

I figured that I'd wait a long time before I shared anything about the real me. I'd wait until I had a following.. until people liked me for things I wrote, the research effort I put forth, the way I conducted myself.

I recently had a milestone. 1000 followers. More than a year has passed.

It's time.

...but I'm confused. How the heck does someone write about "me"... Does anyone even care about "me". What is the tag #introduceyourself all about? I think I know how much I enjoy it.. but I only don't know how much other people like it.

I will tell you why I like #introduceyourself tag on steem.. it's real people coming onto the platform from different countries, with different life experiences sharing themselves with us openly and honestly. I like that.

Here comes my question and confusion

I waited a year to finally do an #introduceyourself post. First time ever. Should I or should I not, forfeit the rewards?

Does it seem less genuine if I allow the rewards for waiting 365+ days to save this piece about myself and get paid for it?

If I allow this #introduceyourself post my most personable one earn steempower and SBD ?

WAIT! Does anyone even want to know who Hive account@intelliguy is?

I'm confused. Publicly confused.

What would you do? I need your opinion.

If you waited an entire calendar year to make an #introduceyourself post... waiting for that special moment after gaining a lot of followers.... do you accept rewards for your one and only introduction post.. or do you negate the rewards completely?

This post you are reading right now -- I am going to decline payout on.. and that's why it is crossed off...

I am about to write a huge writeup on some very interesting things about myself, and I'm unsure of whether or not it is "OK" to accept rewards for it. It seems wrong... but sharing myself "this deep" on the internet doesn't come without a cost to myself... It's hard for me.

The angel on my right shoulder tells me "it's ok Hive account@intelliguy"... if you're open and honest about yourself, rewards that may come are yours.

The devil on my left shoulder, who I normally ignore and shoo away says "man, everyone else gets rewards for their introduceyourself posts... why are you being a schmuck by even asking?"

So when I write this.. my 1000 followers can be the judge.

I'm like that...

I'm the type of guy who cares what everyone else thinks and I put myself last. I've always been that way...

Your thoughts and comments are most appreciated.