I've had something weighing on my heart for months.
A decision that I had to make.
Indecision often produces a decision in itself, but one that only brings unresolved burdens, like a heavy blanket smothering the soul.
One can ignore issues perhaps consciously, but you can't escape it subconsciously.

This weekend I traveled to San Antonio for a retreat to weigh out this unresolved issue and make a decision.

As I gazed into the rippling lake I recognized the waters reflecting an illusion of reality, realizing that I am also an illusion.

Who am I?
What is my purpose?
What would make me happy?
What is happiness?

I closed my eyes and pictured what one day of happiness would entail for me....to discover my inner self that has been buried underneath illusions.

As I walked down this path I understood that I could either continue down the path I am currently on, or veer off into a different direction and create my own path.
I might encounter hardships along the way as I navigate through the trees.
I might feel lost at times as I make my way through the dark night of the soul ...a wanderer in the wilderness.
I may need to sacrifice my false sense of self as my path becomes clearer.
But as I travel through this alchemical death in hopes of transforming to rebirth, I may find my physical universe becoming a relflection of spiritual reality.