In 2016 we were thinking of moving to a bigger property and being self sufficient, but as of now, I have personally lost hope of getting there and feel powerless to change that. It was something that we all wanted as we would have the feeling of being free. As time went by, however, we seemed to forget about that end goal as we can’t do it smoothly and have a risk of losing it all. I find it a bit like pier diving.
At the moment we’re standing on the pier, we have the option of jumping in feet first, walking back onto the beach (going back to where we started) or standing there in the hope something might change; maybe the water will come up and we can just lower ourselves in. There is that risk of something going wrong with getting in and finding nothing has changed. There's always the alternative of swimming out and getting back on that pier, but it takes a bit of effort. There’s always a chance of injury or knocking yourself out and getting stuck, but you can have someone backing you up like we have my grandparents that can always help us out the water until we can recover. If you never take that jump though you don’t really have anywhere else to go, and may start feeling hopeless in that situation. You also may lose the opportunity (go into debt) and never have the chance as the pier has worn down. You also don’t want to jump in when the water is to low; it is possible, but it increases the risk. You can also stand there saying that you will jump in and go in, but it will change nothing unless you do.