Yes, I feel satisfied with what I have achieved so far, and I love what lies deep within my feelings; better yet, I am passionate about having so many new and different goals than I had in my teens. Today I see life differently and I just want to live surrounded by peace, and although I have gradually built the environment I want for myself, there are always days or situations that make me realize the reality that exists out there. That hardly affects me anymore, I am very focused on my goals, but eventually I end up feeling tired, in body, mind, and soul...
I wanted to upload these photos from yesterday. My wife and I were very tired, and we thought about watching a movie, but deep down we knew we were going to sleep. It was a beautiful day, and we couldn't waste it. That doesn't fit with our current goals, and I liked that we shook off that feeling of stagnation and went hiking. We had just gone through a lot of strong emotions, days that were very happy, such as our anniversary, our wedding anniversary, my birthday, and so on, but at the same time we were dealing with a very important change in our lives, something that in the end did not happen as we expected. In fact, right now I don't know if it was a defeat; time will tell, but our optimism kept us active and helped us deal with everything we faced.
I don't know about her, but I was very tired this past week. I gave more than 100% of my energy to everything I did, and I put a lot of effort into supporting my wife, making her feel that she is not alone and not letting her fall into negative thoughts (at least I try to), but generally after stages like this I am very tired in every way. The only downside is that my jobs don't allow me much free time to rest. I just have to find a way to make my days more enjoyable, even though people often make that difficult for me (here in Venezuela, everyone is stressed out). This afternoon's hike was a way to deal with it, and it actually worked. Today I woke up feeling better, but idiots make me want to run home early.
Yes, there is a lot of work to be done to reach the top, the road is long, but there is optimism, talent, and a strong desire to do things right. In fact, what I am doing most right now is accelerating the process toward success. We are not doing badly, but we could be doing better, which is why I don't allow myself any breaks, even though I really need them, and eventually I reach this point of collapse. As they say, all that remains of the rush is exhaustion, and in fact, allowing myself free time is part of the plan to be better. In my country, the economy is very crazy. In fact, I think this has been one of the most anarchic weeks of 2025. People don't know the real value of the dollar. It's a very long story, but it does affect personal relationships on the street and at work. There is a strange energy that has made me feel uncomfortable because it does not resonate with my feelings, and staying focused on my goals has kept me away from it, but this small inconvenience we had in the last few days is enough to make me notice the behavior of others, or worse, maybe I am the one who is disappointed with myself and that is why things affect me more?.
I hope that's not the case. I've put a lot of effort into learning how to deal with situations that are adverse to my goals, and in fact I've talked to my wife about it, and as a couple we don't see it as a failure, perhaps a small setback, but something that won't change our perspective and our goals. In fact, it's a learning experience to continue and move on to the next level. I didn't feel like writing anything today, but that also goes against my personal goals, so I decided to write just to reflect, to write for myself, to free my mind from the weight of my thoughts. And yes, I definitely feel better right now. In fact, I'm probably willing to watch that movie with my wife in a few moments. I really need the rest. Tomorrow will be another day to be Superman and continue my way to the top!...
