This is the riskiest thing I’ve ever done in my life! And I’m really crossing my fingers that it will pay off!
I’ve been through so much over the course of the last five years, I've had to make a lot of tough decisions.
One part time job
One part time job, One full time job & Full time School
Two Part time jobs and School
One part time Job and school
One Part time job
Self-employment
Why the hell am I not feeling any closer to where I want to be In life?
My dream is to travel, To explore, I want to help the environment
And I want to create art!
I was told as a child, That if you worked hard, You’d get anything you wanted out of life
That was the biggest lie I’ve ever heard in my life
I attended college like a good little girl, I worked multiple jobs!
I never felt closer to any of my goals
My bank account was drained and starving, My legs were hurting from all the biking to and from school, And to and from work. I was miserable and unhappy, and I never got to do art
I came to the sick terms…
Maybe one day… When I retire, I can do art, I can be happy and free.
Life lost all meaning when I realized, that was my future
Why do I have to wait until I am old and broken physically to be happy in life? It's MY LIFE!
I was so heart broken, I continued the brutal process of going to my jobs and school, I felt like I was wasting away and dying inside.
I worked for a shipping company as one of my part time jobs. I worked with a wide range of people, Many who had college degrees…
They were stuck at the same job I was.
I worked hard hoping I could move up, But It never happened. The union prevents any unequal treatment, We are given raises equally. It doesn’t matter if you load 3,000 boxes in a night or just 800.
That job was brutal, Id come home in so much pain, All bruised and beat up,
Why am I doing this?
So I can pay my upcoming tuition bill.
What is school doing for me right now?
What have I learned?
After watching my college professor walk in drunk for a couple days of class.. I lost a lot of respect for college in general. Then when I actually paid attention to what I was learning and how I could apply it to my life, I lost even more respect for college.
I HAVEN’T LEARNED ANYTHING!
Yet I’m so broke I can barley feed myself!
I can’t even own a car!
I HAVE NEVER OWNED A CAR!
Medical expenses, school, Pretty much put me in so much debt I can’t purchase one,
I wrote an article about the medical debt here.
I decided to quit school, Then I quit one of my part time jobs.
I started publishing books about saving money… I started making t shirt designs, I started drawing again. I actually felt for once in my life.
That I was making the right choice!
The money rapidly grew, I started an online store.
I tried the survey thing,
I started investing.
I still worked at my part time job at the shipping company…
Then my favorite supervisor quit,
He became self employed. Something I was working to do. But I wasn’t financially capable to quit,
But it started a massive fire inside me.
The Adult Coloring book trend started,
I STARTED PUBLISHING COLORING BOOKS.
Digital art? WTF is that!? Some of my coloring books were FAILURES!
But that’s okay, I kept learning and trying,
My books started to gain traction.
A year after my supervisor quit, And I couldn’t take it anymore.
I HATE MANAGEMENT
Ive had so many other supervisors and they never replaced the one they had. I rapidly lost respect and stopped working hard.
I can’t work for anyone anymore.
I have to be my own boss… I HAVE TO MAKE IT!
Now at 23 I’m taking the plunge, I’m kind of being a bit .. Stupid.
I have no savings, and I do have some debt. But while at my job that hasn’t changed. So maybe with this business that I started, this business that I’ve been growing I can make it!
I’m giving up 4 years of seniority, Health insurance, dental, Tuition reimbursement, 3 weeks paid vacation, Paid option days, Paid sick days,
But I don’t use most of it, I’ve been in and out of the dentist over 4 times in a month. Trying to take advantage of the insurance, before I’m cut off.
I’m about to put in my two weeks, And I’m so terrified. The only time I gave my two weeks is through text that one time, ( I tend to leave jobs the WRONG way.)
The anxiety of the whole situation is killing me, But I crave the freedom, I crave art. and I hope this isn't something I regret later.