I'd spent the majority of the past decade abusing my body with little regard or respect for it. Last night I got a reminder of my mortality.
I generally run long hours in front of the workstation.. Generally atleast a 24 hour waking period or more at a time. Running my body and mind like a slave machine, but without the proper upkeep. Recipe for disaster.
You Never Know What Your Day Will Bring
It was a regular night, had drank a few gins, a pack of redbull, smoked the devils lettuce and had tabbed over to check out what was going on with Steemit. All of a sudden the right side of my face felt like it'd been lit on fucking fire. It took me by surprise and my first reaction was to rub my face, the burning subsided and I realized I'd lost most feeling in it.
What happened to me last night was a TIA.. Or transient ischemic attack, otherwise known as a "mini-stroke". I was extremely lucky, it could have been far far worse. While I'm still regaining proper motor functions on my right side I've made it through the worst of it. This was the second stroke I've had in a decade, the first one was around a decade ago and left me with a crooked smile.. Now it's tilted the other way.
About 3%-5% weaker on the right side but feeling and functionality is returning and I expect I'll recover fine. KLYE is strong in mind & soul.
My body is demanding I treat it better, seemingly I spend to much time sitting, not enough time excersising or eating good foods to fuel it for these long hours I've been forcing on it. Need to try to be more respectful of this shell I inhabit. There is no glory in dying young due to self neglect and after last night it's clear to me it's time to make serious changes in the way I live in order to make the most of the time left remaining in this realm. I'm not finished my mission on this earth.
It Takes More Than Brain Damage to Kill KLYE
I will be ok, my body is incredibly resistant to death. But knowing I could have just as well died last night does shake me up a bit. My speech and memory are seemingly unharmed but I'm down roughly 3%-5% strength and control on the right side. Face is still a bit numb on the right side but feeling is returning. Been blessed with a chance to improve the way I maintain this body. Incredibly grateful to my biology, system design, guardian angels and/or creator for not leaving me dead in my chair.
All of the money, fame and power in the world means nothing if you're unable to enjoy it due to dying from self neglect. I learned that last night. It's time to start treating myself like a human being and not an immortal dick drawing code deity... Because at the end of the day I'm just visiting this realm for the experience of it. Everything is temporary here.
Less stress, more excersize, better eating, less masking my bodies feedback with pot, booze and caffeine.. Because at the end of the day tomorrow isn't a guarantee.
Every day could be my last, Each breath possibly the final.
Take care of yourselves better than I was taking care of me. You never know when your face is going to get lit on fire and your ability to move or feel properly taken from you. I'm a lucky fuck to still be here. Don't be like me and run yourself into the ground, take care of your mortal bind to this planet.. You never know when your number may be called.
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