Hi dear,
I am firstly very honored to have you in my life. My thoughts of you always put smiles on my face and I know you can tell because I really suck at hiding it around you. We sure have had fun times, we have been somewhat intimate or maybe not. We have had our fights and gotten stronger most of the time. All of the fond memories we have made, are very well lodged in the most expensive suites of my heart. I guess all I am trying to say is that I love you.
It is a new year and I will not start off telling you about some bloody resolutions of which I have no intention to keep, nor will I promise some obscene chastity to which I may have already fallen prey to. I really hope you stay with me and read this letter to the end, seeing as I gave it a lot of thought before bringing in words to show you the depths of what and how I truly feel.
I do not want you out of my life, nor do I really need you in it. I am not confused because I know I value your friendship. My request is that you understand this, my seeming absence from your life in the next few months is because I need the time to make me better and focus on becoming the God-version of myself. I have no intentions of leaving your life, my friendships are for life. Since I believe in long term relationships, it means that I can take some selfish spaces in the short term .
I have met a lot of you, most came for several reasons, a lot have fizzled away for some other reasons, but you stayed true despite my KLYNNY nature; for that I am eternally grateful. You have a certain juice you bring to the table which makes you unique and also give your words a parking spot in my garage. For every time I told you to smile, for every time I encouraged you with words, for every kiss I planted on your forehead reassuring you that someone cares, I took a snapshot and jailed the memory within the confines of my heart.
It is quite obvious that I love you, but I love him more. My only request is that you stay with me, because the truth is... I really cannot take this walk alone. It would be interestingly boring.
I'll probably wish I hadn't typed this, by the time I wake up tomorrow morning.
