You are saying "Sorry", but I think you mean "Thank you"...

A couple months ago one of my closest friends (and if I am being honest, my mentor in many ways) said this to me. This week it all started to make sense. I apologize for being curious, quirky and slightly inconveniencing others, much too often. This actually may lead to people to believe that my apologies are not sincere, and possibly that my abilities are sub par. As my friend so lovingly pointed out, it is also annoying.

For more on this: http://www.becomingwhoyouare.net/are-you-saying-sorry-when-you-really-mean-thank-you/

I also create limitations for myself and send myself into a panic attack, when I fail at even the smallest tasks. This leads me to either a. not use the skills I already possess, or b. convince myself that I can not learn things that I am likely capable of excelling at, or at the very least becoming proficient in.

I have always been excellent at providing support and love to others, but the truth is I am not very good at doing the same for myself. I know I continually write about self improvement and valuing oneself, but it is something that I continually struggle with.

What if I fuck it up??

Why can I not see my own worth??

I am not going to try, because what if I fail??

The truth is I am not attempting brain surgery....

If I fail, I simply need to get up, shake it off, and try again, or find a new way. None of the things I am trying to accomplish are life or death situations, there are no lions chasing me, and I am under no strict deadlines.