Be careful! Follow me! Watch me in the eye! If you want it and do it, you will not have to ask me any questions. You will know everything you need to do the first, second, and eventually even a third step towards me.
Be careful!
You will see how I smile every time our eyes are spotted, even before I frowned.
You'll see how I get away, instead of saying "Hello!" as a toddler. It happens in the first place because I'm glad to see you.
You will see that my body is slightly turned towards you, even if you are far away.
Follow me!
You will notice that I am looking for your eyes, looking for you, looking for your closeness, but I can not ask for it.
You will notice that sometimes I speak nonsense when you are near me because you worry me I do not know you.
You will notice how much I worry about the proximity of every stranger because I have not yet figured out their model of behavior.
Watch me in the eye!
You will understand that I am very glad when I talk to you, but I will never talk to you first or come first to you.
You will understand that my face shows the worry I feel when I communicate with you or another stranger as if it is almost obvious that my belly is shrinking and my hands are shaking.
You will understand that I'm not pulling, I'm not inaccessible, but I'm worried.
Be careful! Follow me! Watch me in the eye!
You will be clear, you will not need to ask me why I need you to take the first few steps to me. My fear is irrational, but it's there. There it is, somewhere deep inside me and every day I try to understand why. Every day I fight with him.
Understand me!
I want to communicate with you, but the physical discomfort I feel at the first step toward you is great and sometimes stops me holding me as my hostage.
Much love - Krisii
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